Recanting: An Apology
Derphoof
At the risk of being the virtual Mitt Romney, I have the following message to announce:
I have deleted my previous article and left the party I just created...
Why?
Because I honestly couldn’t do it. I can’t lead a party based on criticizing others. Its just not who I am and my own blindness to that truth got in the way of that. I am an extremely empathetic person. Unlike others who may criticize, troll and lambast others, I don’t really have the heart to do that. While a troll may not care what they say or who they say it to, I do care. There are people behind each one of those avatars out in this game. In Fact, one person may be behind several avatars! These people are men and women of all different ages. They come here to this game for various reasons. They may be here for friends, for a getaway from the harshness of everyday life, for strategic fun, or because it might make them feel important.
So who am I to ruin it for them?
I feel for the people behind those avatars when I say anything critical of someone else. It hurts. When people say negative things about me, it hurts as well. Is it inevitable that people will throw out harsh criticisms? Perhaps. I know that when I am criticized it gives me a drive to do better. I have had harsh unreleased articles responding to criticism that I never published because I didn’t have the heart to do so. But Canada had long been plagued by nasty voices and over-the-top roleplay. I fought against it to “Create a more positive Political Sphere,” just as the CPF taught me to do.
With my earlier decision, I added to the negativity...
So I took a step back, and checked myself. I felt sick after publishing that article. Physically. Sick. I knew that it wasn’t the right decision. After all, this was going against everything that I had fought for. So basically, I just need to get back to my roots. I don’t need to sink any further.
I largely betrayed the trust of those i held close to me. They were people in the CPF, UPC, CW and elsewhere. To go back, I know that they may not accept me. I’ve spent the larger part of 6 months building up that trust. In one second, I practically tore most of it down.
Yet, I have to go back.
Its where I belong. I feel a sense of loyalty to those who gave me my start, those who have supported me, and those who have continued to support me. The CPF has been my party for my active eLife. I put a TON of time and effort into that party. I put out articles about the tenets and I watched it grow from a party of about 60 to a party of about 150. It has been a bastion of positive and progressive politics.
So back I go, if they will have me.
- So am I weak? Go ahead and portray me as such.
- Was it stupid? Sure, I’ll admit to it
- “Actions speak louder than words. I'm curious what EPDs words amount to this time.” Sure, my words didn’t really amount to anything positive. My words led to inner remorse and turmoil. The only really positive things were the articles from CW and UPC.
- Was it a waste of 40 gold? Meh, I couldn’t care less about gold right now.
- Will my opponents use this against me? Will I be lambasted? Of Course. I would have easily avoided it by standing by my decision. However, sticking with a bad decision and carrying it through doesn’t make it the right decision. Instead, it just makes me look foolish.
So I apologize to those whom I have offended in CW, UPC, and CPF. I’ll have to do a lot to regain your trust. It’ll be a long and hard road. I also apologize to those of whom i dragged with me from other parties on this venture. To be caught up in this and then suddenly told it was the wrong choice was a terrible thing to do on my part. It is part of why I am seeking to rectify the situation sooner rather than later.
A house divided cannot stand. I should not work to divide the nation, I’m the CP. Even if people think that some of the criticism is deserved, I don’t care. Perhaps the criticism was needed on some level. However, I’m not going to involve myself in the antics that divide Canada. I know the difference between constructive criticism and destructive blathering. I did some destructive blathering. My efforts are better served in helping my home party of the CPF, and working behind the scenes to help others, rather than tearing down other parties.
So do I want to look like a flip-flopper, or the guy who is too blind to see his own mistakes? I’d rather be known as the one who made a dumb mistake, recognized it, and switch back, rather than the one who is too stupid to see what he’s done. So I’m abandoning that which I have created and moving back to CPF.
With that said, I am still going to run for CP. I don’t care if Jacobi runs, wants to run, or does anything of the sort. I’m going full steam ahead. In fact, you can find my article here.
Now, we’ll see what happens.
In Humble Remorse,
ElPatoDiablo
Comments
Good for you mate! voted and supported!
"Yet, I have to go back."
Lol, because your re-election chances took a beating with that stoopid decision.
"Its where I belong."
Not true, its just where you stand the best chance of winning a CP election. Good luck earning the nomination from CPF after that move.
I knew it was coming and still it stings. 🙁
Looks like your going to have to make something out of IPC, eh Quimbie?
Good Luck o7
Guess so, sorta feel like I've been sold a lemon...
"Lol, because your re-election chances took a beating with that stoopid decision."
Not necessarily. CPF runs a primary featuring all possible candidates. They can pick whoever they want, regardless of party.
"Not true, its just where you stand the best chance of winning a CP election."
Not true, it is sincerely where I belong. In returning, I feel at peace and I feel a lot better in going back to the people that I care about.
This article seems strangely familiar to your other 'mistake' http://www.erepublik.com/en/article/-cp-the-best-laid-plans--2152917/1/20
You have proven that you act and then think and then apologize. Plus you spent 40 gold to create a new party when there are a dozen parties under 10 members that you could have taken over if you wanted. YOu probably made your plan after the PP elections then said screw it I'll spend the 40 gold cause I really want my own party
"Stupid" decisions, your words, from a "weak" leader in this article = EPD being the only way forward for Canada in another.
This is some verbal kung-fu we're witnessing. If I hadn't already been the recipient of this exact same mea culpa twice before (or three?) it would have a little bit more power to it.
You had your chance, you spent it in bouts of irrationality and lulz, we might like you but you're not the mature leader Canada needs.
do you feel at peace in the CPF? you spent the last month going around parties and even tried to PTO Clan Wolf, not very CP like is it.
You dont seem interested in doing CP work, you took I think it was 6 days after you were re-elected before releasing your cabinet because you were "procrastinating".
There's a certain symmetry to the first article of his term being an apology and one of the last being an apology. But let's take that lack of interest in doing CP work.
6 total article:
3 apologies
1 Battle order
1 attack ad on me
1 "unexciting update"
What adventures will we have in a third term with that type of activity!?
@Addy Lawrence
It's not about proposing candidate you like at all.
It's about proposing candidate who will offer more jobs to you'r party and who can possibly win.
@ElPatoDiablo
I'm glad you gave it second thought.
Good luck to You 🙂
The CPF will hold an internal an internal CP Primary from Friday-Saturday, then an open field Primary Sunday-Monday.
An interesting article ...
http://xpressinlif.wordpress.com/2012/01/15/if-we-learn-from-our-mistakes-why-are-we-always-so-afraid-to-make-a-mistake/
Thank you for retracting your previous article EPD.
I cannot speak on behalf of CW but you have earned some of the previous respect I held for you back.
One day I am sure it will all comeback. But time is needed for that
@Quimbie Muffins: Remember Quimbie, when life gives you lemons...BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD
All you people accepting this apology are morons. How many times does EPD have to do something like this before you will understand this is all he does - troll then apologize only to be welcomed back. Jeez, can you really be all that gullible?
But then again, I got elected for a second time, so ya, you're all that gullible.
Difficult to file for divorce and then tell your spouse you were mistaken after all. Most people took your leaving in stride, so I'm sure you will be able to regain trust. Funny how one mistake can destroy months of work. Think, then think again. I don't no what kind advise you were getting, but I assume you were not listening to it.
I support a `Taking a cleaver to the Cleaver" day. Anyone in with me?
Gtfo.
TheyCallMeBugs Day 1,835, 09:38 I support a `Taking a cleaver to the Cleaver" day. Anyone in with me?
Obvious multi is obvious.
Oh, and I find it hilarious that you'd attack me after I point out how foolish everyone who accepts EPD's nonsense is.
Wally. Everyone has bad days and everyone lashes out at times.
Part of being human is to expect and accept this and move on.
To expect someone to be perfect all day every day is completely foolish.
EPD made a mistake and apologized... Am I sitting here with my arms open giving him a hug? No. but I am a man and a man that has made many mistakes myself.
We learn from them and we move on. I accepted EPD's apology and told him i do not hold any ill feelings.
What is so foolish about that?
"How many times does EPD have to do something like this before you will understand this is all he does - troll then apologize only to be welcomed back. Jeez, can you really be all that gullible?"
Lolfit
Wally, how can you possibly be surprised at the extent of the gullibility of eCdns when they elected both Rolo and yourself to CP a second time??!!!
Cleaver, you are an idiot! Why don't you do ECanada a favour and leave you moronic a...h...!!!
How about we temper the name calling? Wally is a 2 time CP, EDP is a 2 time CP, Rolo is one of the most successful players in this game. Debate their policies and actions, but the personal attacks are bollocks (and yes I have been guilty of this in the past, I am no better than anyone else). We're all fictionalized characters trying our damnedest to further our brands. Success is all we should worry about. #Winning
@TheyCallMeBugs - We all know you're a multi. No noob would hold that level of aggression towards me (at least not one created 12 days ago).
@Addy - Not really surprised at the gullibility. Though I am wondering when he'll be branded as an enemy of eCanada and not praised as a great CP.
I played before. Had the account deleted and i'm back in the game (so no multi account). And yes Wally, you do bring out the worst in me. I'm usually well tempered but with you, ECanada could certainly do better then the likes of you.
We can't have success until ge get rid of the dead weight. And being a CP does not automatically give you the right of passage as a successful player. There are many great players in this game who couldn't care less about running for CP.
I would want many great players who have not been CP's on my team then a few who have been bad CP's. One of the jobs of a good CP is to unite. If you look at the blood lust of many posts above, you'll note that there's no wish to unite. The wish is to destroy for gain.
"Blood lust"? Umm...nope. Not calling for anyone to die, just commenting on how gullible people are. And what exactly am I looking to gain by pointing out that EPD isn't to be trusted anymore?
It's a game. ^__^ Move on eCanada.
ElPato, it takes a certain something to admit to your own mistakes, and we should all see that and respect it.
^ its harder to get respect back the more times you make mistakes and then release a apology letter shortly after.
Horses and Bayonettes!
Oh snap, I should write some sort of CP candidate thing...
douche move dude.
Do I think that EPD has damaged his image and will need to re-earn some trust? Yes. Do I think he is genuinely sorry for some of the things he has said and done? Yes. Take from that what you will. I am still trying to sort it all out.
oh, and dude... you should change your game name to Derpy Hooves!