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MaryamQ
Hello, eBelgium and beyond,
For the past week I have been thinking about what to say to you and how to say it. Some of you have noticed how quiet I have become and have expressed concern. You know who you are, and I thank you. There are a lot of genuinely good people here. The fact is, I have been undergoing an identity crisis of sorts, fueled in part by politics in eBelgium and in part by real life. Coincidentally, I have witnessed the decisions of other players I admire, at least two of whom are RL grandparents like me (Thomas Keesman and Arjay Phoenician), to leave, not in rage, but to pursue more important things in their lives.
Many of you who know me, know I like to express myself in poetry, and I want to share what I wrote last week while thinking about all this.
The Sum of a Man
Personae we present may not compute
Into a single self-defining sum.
While one might see a colleague as astute,
Another calls him absolutely numb.
The labels we apply do not present
A unified depiction of the whole.
The role that someone plays in one event
Should not be deemed a snapshot of the soul.
Still undiscovered is the kind of math
That tallies up the total of a man
Or calculates the choices in his path
To graph projections of his life's whole span.
For even the great One has many names,
And he does not engage in social games.
So what am I saying here? Am I leaving? No, not exactly, and not yet, but I am stepping back. I do not like the way I felt after the Party President elections. I have been called a traitor by one side and a hypocrite by the other. This is not the way I want to see myself, and it is not the way I want to see Res Belgica. I am not running for Congress this month, and will cut back on my other activities here for now. However, I do want to make it clear that this is not the whole reason for my decision. Some of you know I have some new challenges going on in RL, as well, including starting a training program for a sprint triathlon that I plan to join with my daughters and which I have a great physical and emotional stake in completing. Those of you who remember my original avatar, which was a real photo of me taken at my son's wedding in 2008, will realize that I am not young and I am not athletically inclined. If I am still playing the game at the end of the summer when this is completed, I hope to be able to share a very different photo with you.
In the meantime, I will still be around, but not as active as I have been in the past. I look forward to remaining a part of this community, and hope you will consider wisely and elect the best possible Congress. There are a lot of great candidates out there. Go vote for them!
Oh, and just to show I still love you, have a cookie!
Affectionately,
MaryamQ
Comments
I understand your decision and applaud your dedication. Thank you for all of your past contributions. Our community will be at a loss when you step back. Good luck with your training!
I wish you good luck with the training programm. You will probably return stronger and with a lot of new stories to tell 😁
Maryam, you are an awesome person! I wish you all the luck on your plans and I hope you rock that triathlon!
Looking forward for pictures! xD
Good luck with RL and have fun for now!
yay cookies!
Good luck with the training. Glad you stick around!
Go for first place, nothing less 😃
good luck for you. Don't eat a lot of cookies
Always good to take a break occasionally. But do please stick around.
eRep needs more Grands, not fewer!
good luck with RL
Agreeing with all the posts above, it will be deffinitly a loss for our community to have less Maryam. At the same time, the projects and challenges in this game don't even come close to the ones you have in RL and to the gratification you'll feel undertaking them, which makes me genuinly glad for you. eRep wisdom has it that the less you are here, the better you are doing out there, in the real world, which will be a warming thought (;
And I really enjoyed the poem, especially the final sentence.
Good luck IRL 😉
Luck:
Luck is like a rainbow
Sometimes it is dark blue
Sometimes it is like a clear blue sky
Then it turns to yellow
then again it shifts red
For everybody it is something new.
Often hidden but there to be seen.
I wont wish you luck MaryamQ. For the simple reason I just know you will succeed in the things you set your mind too.
I'm glad you will stick around. Like you I miss Arjay. People like him and you create a well needed balance in this game.
Go girl, go and achieve your goals. I will be cheering for you from across the ocean!
If you need some good running music and tips, talk to me on IRC. I am training for a Quarter Triathlon as well
I could quite possibly faint if I stood up too quickly. 😛😛
Good life dear lady, you have to decide the division between real life and play life. Remember RL > eRep.